Look what I received in the mail!

Thank you Gisela for my present! I love my mug too bits!

If your jealous and want one of your own , visit Gisela's shop
http://arwenita.deviantart.com/store/

or blog
http://www.giselejaquenod.com.ar/blog/

Self doubt

As always struggling with what to do with my life. I know the lifestyle I want, but how to fit my career around it?

I want a dog


Keep ducks


Plotter in my vegetable garden


Paint, sew, make pottery


Read

I guess you can say that I'm a romantic at heart :o)

But most of all I want a dog. Badly. I love the company and comfort adog gives and it always great to come and be greeted with so much love. To go on long walks, and play catch. Also a dog makes me feel safe. She will guard the house and me. But to have a full time job and work full time seems egoïstic. The poor creature will be stuck home alone all day. Thankfully there are dog walking services who will walk your dog when you're not home, but still.

I've always been struggling with my self confidence, or lack of it. I'm usually very enthusiastic about a college/university course I really want to do but after a while the doubts start to come in. Is it something I really want to do? Am I good enough? Can I find work in it? Even the bad 'what will other people think if I did this?'. It's get's be nowhere except in a big muddle. Perhaps I'm just unconciously scared to go back to school after such a long time. I don't like big crowds and I'm always worried about my memory and that I want's remember what I've been taught at exams. It took me four times to pass my drivers license. Not because I was a bad driver - I was good in the lessons- but during the driving exams I would totally black out. I had to go to an special examination office where they took more time with you. Fear of failure is what my driving instructor said. I would LIKE to go to college and learn -I always want to learn new things. Andf to be realistic, where are you nowadays without a proper college degree? Behind the till at Tesco? A factory worker? Nothing wrong with those jobs, but it's for me. I know I can do more then that.

I will write more later.

Liesel

Oh my goodness!

I won something!! A while ago I took part in a contest (see here: http://lieselsgardenparty.blogspot.com/2009/01/my-contest-entry-d.html) and I'm the first winner!

Look at that!

Liesel's Ambitions: Work

What to do with oneself?

I finished secondary school, went to college after which I started at my summer job which lasted 5 years before I quit to go travelling and to be quite honest to get away from everything. A year later I have three part-time jobs and, to be frank, I'm just going with the (slow) current. I'm quite happy but really someone of my age (25) I should have a full time job and be able to provide for myself or, at the very least, study. I don't do either. Which really stopped me is that it's scarry to go back in 'society'. I have lived a sheltered life after college and have become a homebody. Oh I go out shopping and walks but nothing really sociable outside my family and work. I KNOW have to do something with my life - especially after my cousin's young death I have become aware that you shouldn't take life for granted and vowed to life by the day. Most of the times I do enjoy the little things; a cat sleeping in the sun, birds gathering twigs to build their nest, the glowing stars at night and I'm happy I can see and appreciate those things because I know many people don't and they miss out on so much! My parents quite rightly dispair of me and keep nagging I should do something. My mum has been telling me to become a secretary for years now but no longer is she saying to me to the course but she's telling me I am. It's one year course and even in this time secretaries are in demand which is a good thing to know. I just can't see myself as one. Then again I can't see me doing any job. I keep going in circles. I have so many interests that I find it difficult to choose one study because it means not doing another one that interests me as well. Of course now I'm letting them go all by not chosing any study. I'd love to study history but I'm very sensitive and honestly don't know if I can deal with the horrors of the death penalty and wars. I love art history but could you make a carreer in it? Thelogy, because I'm intered in different religions and I think I'm make quite a good Theologist. I suppose you could work in a museum (doing what?) or a teacher and one thing I am certain about is that I'm not teacher material! I have difficulty enough to make the dogs listen to me, let alone children. Something I will have to learn may I have my own children one day. I'd love to make a difference. That's always the first thing that comes to my mind when I think what I want to do with my life. I enjoy taking care of people but I could not be a nurse (I'm too skittish). I'd love to see the world but to work in the travel world I'm afraid it will rub away the fun out of it and being a vegetarian/vegan brings some problems along. So secretary doesn't sound too bad although a bit boring perhaps? A friend of my sister's is a secretary and she enjoys her work and being only 20 she just bought her own home! I'm a girl who likes her luxuries; getting my eyebrows plugged, going on holiday a few times a year, more expensive clothes like Oililly & Ted Baker (although I don't buy them too often and also love shopping at Primark & TK Maxx). If I have well paid job I could work part-time (4 days a week or only mornings) which would be ideal and like mum always says you can do fun things in your spare time. I've always wanted to learn riding, keep bees and make pottery and I would have time and energy to those. I have to say if you have read so far I'm impressed! It must be quite a bore to read about my ramblings but appreciate your having read everything so far. Now my question is what do you think I should do? And what would you do in my situation? Don't worry about sparing my feelings, I want you to be very honest and frank.

Thanks, Liesel

Too much? Liesel's Ambitions

Liesel's Ambitions

Too much energy. I sometimes feel like doing cartwheels right on street, to run just for the fun of it around the block, to go kickboxing! Just to release energy. For a twenty-five year old girl I live a very simple life and monotome life. But I want to do things! Take sewing lessons and make my very own Jane Austen dress (and wear it!, learn to run a marathon (or at least a half one to start with), go linedancing! Jazz ballet! I think I have rhytmn but the how should I know? I only dance when noone is watching. All this energy bubbled inside me must be put to a good cause. I care about animals and my heart just breaks when I see an animal in pain. I always say that's the reason why I can't work with animals, but perhaps that's the very why I should do it! To fight for your cause and to put all your energy in it saving those lives! But can I live with it? Will I still be able to sleep at night without breaking out in a sweat in middle of the night because of nightmares? I don't know. Nelson Mandela once said that a strong will can go two ways: very bad or (thank goodness) in his case to be ultimate good. You can choose where you put your energy in. I feel like I have all this energy bottled up inside me, wasting it away while I good do good things with it. But what is that good? Perhaps I'll never know, or perhaps I do but just don't take the time to sit down and reflect and see things clearly. Not an easy task for a scatty brain and someone who has great difficulty to sit still and do one thing at a time. Who knows where I'll be in another five years. Hopefully up to something good :o)

I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear.
- Nelson Mandela

Liesel

Shopping: Saint Patrick's Day

I love Irish Blessings. They are so cheerful and full of good homour you can't helpbut smile. Ah Ireland. You know I've never been to Ireland, that is to say not yet ;) Irish whiskey, pubs, castles and legends.. it's a fascinating country. My uncle lived in Ireland but I have never visited him there. Anyway enough chit chat :p Here are some of my favourite Irish Blessings and underneath my favourite Saint Patrick gifts. Enjoy!

May brooks and trees and singing hills

Join in the chorus too,

And every gentle wind that blows

Send happiness to you.

May God grant you many years to live,

For sure He must be knowing

The earth has angels all too few

And heaven is overflowing.

May the Irish hills caress you.

May her lakes and rivers bless you.

May the lick of the Irish enfold you.

May the blessing of Saint Patrick behold you.

Irish Toast

When we drink, we get drunk.

When we get drunk, we fall asleep.

When we fall asleep, we commit no sin.

When we commit no sin, we go to heaven.

So, let's all get drunk, and go to heaven!

Happy Saint Paddy's everyone!

-click on the image to enlarge-

1 Irish Pirate Elf Boots by Super Fay (I absolutely LOVE these!)
2 Green Flower Cowl by PhylPhil
3 Cuddly Cat Snuggle Bed by Craft Smith
4 Clover Wall Stickers by Shannon
5 Legendary Luck - Felt Brooch Pin by A Beautimus Hodgepodge
6 Green Beer Earrings by Button Divas

Sorry I've been so quiet lately, I just didn't feel very inspired. Hope you all been well!

Love, Liesel

The Watered Lilies

Poetry Monday


The Watered Lily's

The MASTER stood in His garden,
Among the lilies fair,
Which His own right hand had planted,
And trained with tend’rest care.

He looked at their snowy blossoms,
And marked with observant eye
That the flowers were sadly drooping,
For their leaves were parched and dry.



“My lilies need to be watered,”
The Heavenly Master said;
“Wherein shall I draw it for them,
And raise each drooping head?”

Close to his feet on the pathway,
Empty, and frail, and small,
An earthen vessel was lying,
Which seemed no use at all;

But the Master saw, and raised it
From the dust in which it lay,
And smiled, as He gently whispered,
“This shall do My work today:

“It is but an earthen vessel,
But it lay so close to Me;
It is small, but it is empty—
That is all it needs to be.”

So to the fountain He took it,
And filled it full to the brim;
How glad was the earthen vessel
To be of some use to Him!

He poured forth the living water
Over His lilies fair,
Until the vessel was empty,
And again He filled it there.

He watered the drooping lilies
Until they revived again;
And the Master saw with pleasure
That His labor had not been vain.

His own hand had drawn the water
Which refreshed the thirsty flowers;
But He used the earthen vessel
To convey the living showers.

And to itself it whispered,
As He laid it aside once more,
“Still will I lie in His pathway,
Just where I did before.

“Close would I keep to the Master,
Empty would I remain,
And perhaps some day He may use me
To water His flowers again.”

- Author unknown