Nan - May 2 2008

Alright! This has been a lovely week. Mum just called it's not going good at all with nan Elizabeth. She had a stroke last weekend which left her half paralised (she is in a convalescent(?) home since it looks like she got a form of dementia after the many strokes she had in the last year). I visited her on Tuesday and although she was lying in bed she looked very restul and she said that she was alright. I left with an (under circumstances) good feeling. Nan's home called and said that she is doing very badly now. She is keeps fluids within and she is now on oxygen. I can't lose another nan! It's been I'm still crying over nan Adriana. How can I live without both of them????

Nan - March 31 2008

Caring, loving, funny, trying to pull everyone's leg, just.

My best friend, my shelter, my comfort, my refuge, my nan.

I feel empty without her. I visited a few times a week, and everytime I think 'Oh let's visit nan' and then I realise she's not there and I have quickly have to think f something else before I break down. It seems so unfair. Nan Elizabeth WANTS to die, yet she doesn't. Nan Adriana was full of life, and now she's gone